Chapter 45
Chapter 45
He looks at me and then at my hand. “Sit down,” he said.
I nodded and sat down.
He sat beside me and suddenly pulled me on his lap. He snuggled his face in the nape of my neck.
“If I become the worst person… will you leave me?” he asked huskily. His touch and his voice both were giving me
chills.
“No… I won’t”
“How do I trust you?” he asked.
“By testing me?” I said, but I think he misunderstood me because the next moment I was on the bed with him over
- me.
“How do I test you?” he asked near my ears.
“I–I don’t know” I stuttered at the close proximity.
He took a deep breath and came face to face with me. I closed my eyes; his face intimidates me a lot.
“Open your eyes,” he said slowly.
Every time, he yells at me when I close my eyes. But this time, he said the same gently.
I opened and came across the most beautiful pairs of eyes. They were brown, with light once again.
“Do you have feelings for me?” he asked.
My eyes widened at his question.
What can be the answer to the most difficult question?
I myself don’t know.
It is not like that I don’t like him… I–I feel this connection with him; it is inexpressible. He won’t believe me anyway
if I tell him.
But do I really like him?
I don’t know. How does it feel to like someone?
I–I feel like he is the only purpose of my life; except meeting my mom and Alex.
Is it what feels like love?
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To devote our lives to others?
“This question can bring tears to your eyes. I don’t think you will leave any chance of leaving me I heard him.
Tears?
Am I crying?
Why?
He went back and stood up as he was about to leave. I knew.
It is a chance.
Tell him; go on.
I took his hand from behind and turned him around. He looked at me confused.
That day, I looked directly into his eyes… and joined our lips.
He was taken aback and I knew it. He never expected any bold step from me. But I like him; no matter how weird
this seems.
He slowly pulled me close and I felt myself melting in his embrace.
I kept my hands around his neck and kept kissing him. He was kissing me back; very slowly. Like he was still learning how to kiss. Like he was afraid that just a little force… and he’ll ruin everything.
We parted and I looked down as I didn’t know how he will react. He left the room without another word.
I sat down and started thinking.
What happened?
How can I kiss him?
And… now, is he angry?
Shrugging all thoughts, I decided to do some other stuff to get my thoughts off what happened.
I suddenly remembered the phone he gave me.
Am I supposed to return it?
I quickly took it out. It has been a long time since I used my phone.
I decided to give it back. All these little things can make him trust me.
I went downstairs and found him drinking.
I ran to him. Drugs are the worst things for him.
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“Robert,” I said. “Stop”
“Huh? Why?” he asked.
“Please,” I said.
He looked at me once again before nodding his head in denial. He was about to drink again, but I took the bottle and threw it on the ground and it spilled.
He looked at me with rage.
“HOW DARE YOU!?” he yelled.
I took a step behind.
“I need something to keep my mind stable!” he continued yelling.
“Hurt me,” I said.
He looked at me confused. “Hm?”
“Hurt me but don’t drink. Please”
Robert’s POV
After returning home, I was not in any mood to eat anything.
How can you possibly eat after you know that someone who you insulted a lot almost died saving you?
Do you know that guilt? Shame?
Hailey was once again caring about me. She wanted me to think that it wasn’t my fault.
I didn’t want to hurt her at all. But… I just do it unintentionally. I didn’t even know when my grip tightened.
I gave her some medicines to treat the wound.
After she went inside, I wanted to kind of… Apologize.
So, I went inside and sat beside her, but then the distance felt too much so I pulled her on my lap.
I found myself really melting in her fragrance. It was making me crazy. I asked her the question I fear about; that will she leave me if I become the worst person.
She denied, but I don’t trust her… yet.
I asked her how is it even possible to trust anyone. I mean… It hurts a lot, you know? When you trust someone and they break it.
After she said that I should test her, I didn’t know what she meant.
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I looked into her eyes, after pulling her on the bed. She was beautiful as always. But when I asked her if she had any feelings for me, which I knew was almost impossible, she cried.
I don’t know what happened, but a tear left her eyes as she was thinking something.
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